Today's post is going to be a little more personal since I'm talking about all my feelings about being a senior in college! I was given the idea for this post by a blogger friend of mine (Sarah from The Bella Insider) who was talking about how fast her junior year of college is moving. It got me thinking about how little time I have left at Chapman (about 80 days to be exact) and just how...weird it is to be graduating. Honestly, that's the first word that comes to mind when I think about everything that's happening with school and graduation. A few thoughts have been going through my mind, and probably yours if you're a college senior as well. 1) How am I old enough to graduate college, I still don't feel like an adult. 2) College graduates seemed so much more 'established' when I was younger... which means either us college grads nowadays are not as prepared or more than likely, those college grads were in the same place I was and were doing a "fake it till you make it" type thing. Finally 3) What the heck am I going to do after I graduate?? I've done nothing but school for my entire life!
Although I have a lot of these "I have no idea what I'm doing" thoughts, I'm also aware that I'll figure it out soon enough. I mean, I basically wrote a whole post about that when I realized I wasn't going to use my major after graduation. It's still crazy though to me that I'm already ready to graduate. When I was just getting to college I had so many people telling me that these next four years were going to be the best of my life and would pass by so quickly. I didn't realize how right they were until now. It seriously feels like I was just entering the dorms for the first time a few weeks ago, not a few years. Below is a photo of me on the day that I first visited Chapman and it's crazy how this part of my life is almost over.
It's also funny to think about how I almost transferred out of this school after my freshman year. I'll admit, I definitely have lingering thoughts on what would have happened if I left, but I also wouldn't trade my experience here at Chapman. I've met so many great people and have befriended many professors that have changed my life. I don't know what my life would have been had I changed schools, but who knows, I might not have started this blog if I had left. I might not have discovered this passion and I honestly don't know where I would be without it now. No matter how many issues I have with this university, there are so many positives that outweigh them.
Back to being a senior...it's such a new experience that has me feeling a lot of emotions. I'm anxious, excited, relieved, nostalgic, etc all at the same time. It's different from graduating high school in the way that this feels very finite. When I graduated high school I knew what I was doing, where I was going, what the plan was for the next few years. Right now though, it's open-ended. I have a variety of options ahead of me, and the only thing I know for certain is that I will be living here for another year while my best friend finishes her masters degree. There's no set track that everyone goes on after graduating college. The only thing a lot of people can agree on is that it's where life is supposed to start, and you're entering what so many people call 'the real world.' In my opinion I, and everybody else, has been in the real world this entire time. We just have had it so structured with schooling it just felt like we had it easier. Once we get to really decide our own path everything starts to change, and I think that's why everyone freaks out so much when college graduation rolls around.
This post is turning out to be more of a rambling of thoughts than I want it to be, so I'll end it with a few final words. If you're a college student, enjoy your time because it seriously does pass by so fast. If you're a college senior just know that you and I are going to figure it all out, but for now let's just enjoy these last few months!
Hope you all have a great Monday!